Just a few days ago there was a birthday party in Heaven for two sweet four-year-olds.
Cates is super into birthday parties at the moment. We put candles in biscuits, cupcakes, cinnamon rolls…anything that will hold one and sing “happy birthday” to anyone she can think of over and over again. So, on Thursday it was appropriate to legitimately sing “happy birthday” on a real birthday. A very special birthday to me. After all, I’m not sure I would cherish her precious little life or her brother’s quite as much had it not been for their sisters. Trying to explain to a two-and-a-half-year-old why Mommy cries sometimes or why we visit the cemetery is a challenge I never considered. It isn’t exactly an enjoyable experience, but it is a sweet one. The reality of mortality has forever influenced my outlook on just about everything. That has become a praise.
For some reason that morning I woke up before everyone else and couldn’t go back to sleep. I am reading The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson and I am loving it. I have underlined and starred and made notes all through it. Thursday morning, I began chapter 8. It’s so neat how every now and then God has just the right thing to say at the most appropriate time. Since the day we lost the twins, I have often wondered why we didn’t get the miracle and why it seemed like everywhere I looked there were miracles being passed around like candy. I know that sounds totally self centered, but it is honest. So as I am reading chapter 8, Mark references John the Baptist being in prison. Jesus sends a messenger to John to tell him about all the amazing miracles he is performing and also says “Blessed is the one who is not offended by me.” I can imagine John the Baptist sitting in prison wondering why Jesus didn’t let him in on the miracle train and let him go. After all, John was one of his best followers and his cousin and he was left in prison to die. ”Blessed is the one who is not offended by me”…that hit home. I needed that, especially on the twins’ birthday.
The Circle Maker is totally awesome. My piddley little tid bit above doesn’t do an ounce of justice as to how amazing this book is. It really is a life changing book. So, I’m thinking we will do a fun little give away. Just comment on this post and let us know if you want one and we will contact you back and mail it out. I wish I could give a million away, but let’s start with about 10.